i am deflated, dejected and defeated. i always try my best to make good food for kimmy but he never appreciates any of it. Perhaps he's appreciative of my effort but whatever I make is always greeted by complaints of dislike.
I made pork with sage today. According to Gordon Ramsay, pork tastes great with sage and lemon zest. I tried my best, and I even made sides of mashed potatoes and roasted peppers and zucchini. All this in under an hour, while he was napping. Add to it a full day at work, rushing off to the supermarket at 7 to grab the items, and taking the train back in record time.
I understand kimmy's extremely fussy palate, something he subconsciously picked up from his dad (obviously) who doesn't eat anything except chinese food, and he's been eating that his whole life. I don't cook beef, buy cheese or do anything that's creamy. But whenever I make the same dishes like roasted vegetables and chicken chop, he complains I'm always cooking the same thing, and dismissing me as an inexperienced cook. Today I made something different, and my dishes got dismissed as weird tasting and bad. I dunno how to satisfy him. I cannot cook the same dishes as his mother and I never will. I cannot cook like a masterchef, and I don't want to cook the same dishes that he likes every single day. I cannot bring myself to "tabao" or eat out everyday too, although that seems to suit him fine, but that's not healthy to me.
I feel so sad. He's a great guy, and I doubt I can find someone else as nice as him. But he makes life so difficult for me sometimes, in a way that other women don't have to worry about, and which I envy. Everyone has their peeves about their partners I know, it's just depressing that it's a constant struggle to have to learn to live with it. There is a saying that women often think they can change their husbands after they marry them. Am I in a similar situation?
Friday, August 15, 2008
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