Je Nas Sai Pas

I don't know why. Recently we've been quarrelling a lot. Is that what 10 years of marriage does to you? Or am I just too stressed lately by the intense workload. I sold myself to my company I know, but with good cause. I am doing it for my family's future. But I also feel entitled to the title of "most hardworking" in the family, despite his protests. I have to be a mom, a business person, a designer, a marketer, a teacher, a maid, a wife, a daughter -- all within the space of 24 hours. Did I mention I hardly get sleep?

I have been sick every month since the beginning of 2015. I have been sick for over a week now. Nobody cares. Really. My daughter coughs at night and everyone worries. I cough at night and my husband sleeps soundly. People just say "What's wrong with you! Why is your immunity so bad?"

I wonder too. But I am praying I get 9 straight months of strong health and I believe He will deliver. I need it too. With the new product line-up, trade shows and overseas work trips...things are going to be tough.

I just wish I get the support I need from the family. I cannot afford a domestic helper. Dashed also are my hopes of having another child. Maybe I can wait till 40. My embryos certainly can, but not sure about my body.

Good night.